a cynic and the body of Christ
So here I sit once more in a coffee shop, a different one from any other where I have blogged my thoughts. But I love change and the expectations that come with it and even a new coffee shop brings new expectations for me. I expect a new refreshing atmosphere and new faces to hopefully engage and a new experience. I hate things that look alike and lack personality.
Anyways, the past couple of months have left me tired and yearning for refreshment. My last post consisted of recounting the struggled endured at the new year mark which was a pinnacle of pain felt in a long time. However, a month or so after that experience, I feel myself recovering emotionally and spiritually. My faith and view of God had been tested like no other time and my view of His church was redeemed a little more. I’m a cynic at best when it comes to the church and myself more frustrated by its structures and disconnect than refreshed or encouraged. The past few weeks have consisted of some of the best conversations and involvement coming from people that I hardly know yet serve alongside of within this organized body. I’ve started to see how this broken sometimes over institutionalized group of people can come together and represent Christ. I’m coming to love the body in a new way beginning to accept refreshment from a source I had written off a long time ago.
The last thing I want to write is this: I’ve seen the goodness of God in so many ways over the 6 weeks. And I would be failing to proclaim His glory without telling of His wonderful works. I have seen Him use the situation with Nicole and the loss of our fist child to restore my dad’s faith. God has taken care of all our medical bills leaving us without a penny to worry about. God has gone above and beyond my expectations in taking care of us and bringing those around us into His glorifying presence. Paul says it like this, “Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgements and how inscrutable are his ways!”
